Live. Laugh. Love. Ride.

2009-06-01T17:48:00.000-04:00

Pictures from the show last weekend.
Click on them to make them bigger. =]
http://picasaweb.google.com/Rayzee12/WestfieldGrazers2009#

2009-05-19T14:00:00.004-04:00

I originally took over 500 pictures at the GPC Horse Show on Sunday.
I somehow narrowed it down to 208. xD

Here's the link to the album where all the pictures are.
Some pictures on there look really blurry and unfocused, but I swear they're not. It kept the quality of most of the pictures on there, but for some reason it totally ruined some of them.
So try to ignore those ones and picture them not blurry in your head. XD
Look! Look! Look!
http://picasaweb.google.com/Rayzee12/GranbyPonyClubHorseShow2009#
I used my new lens to take them all. =]
It seriously made me all warm and fuzzy and happy inside, lol.

2009-05-06T17:41:00.001-04:00

"Maybe this applies to all of us. It's been said that "All the world's a stage." We all have an audience. We all have some kind of influence. We all have a story and a voice. Our lives are our songs. Our hearts are our songs. It's okay to ask real questions. It's okay to say real things. Let's make things that matter and move, and let's chase after those things as well."

-Jamie Tworkowski, founder of To Write Love On Her Arms.

2009-05-06T17:37:00.001-04:00

Just ordered my prom dress and my new camera lens. :)

My new lens! http://www.ritzcamera.com/product/541162178.htm
Graduation present from my mom. :)

Prom dress - http://www.overstock.com/Clothing-Shoes/Donna-Ricco-Womens-Chiffon-Halter-Dress/3906239/product.html
Getting it in the brown.

2009-05-06T17:33:00.002-04:00

I'm going to Kentucky in November!
Last week I posted about the MA 4-H State Round Up, and how I got 5th place, which meant I was the alternate.
Well the girl who was in 2nd place decided that she is going to Nationals for Communications instead of Hippology, and dropped out. So I'm on the team!
We get to go to the New England Round Up in October, and then to the National Round Up in Kentucky for 5 days in November. =]

I don't even know how this happened. This is my first year competing in Hippology at all, and now I'm going to compete at the highest level, with the three other best people in Massachusetts. We get to represent our whole freaking state in Kentucky.

...Seriously?

I guess reading every horse book, magazine, and website I could get my hands on since the 4th grade has payed off.

2009-05-06T17:32:00.000-04:00

I'm currently putting off doing this Sociology paper that was due yesterday.

2009-04-27T16:20:00.000-04:00

So me and two other girls from my club competed at the MA State 4-H Round Up this weekend. This is the first year that anyone in our club has competed at Horse Judging, Hippology and Horse Judging even at the local level, even though we've been around for 4 years, lol. But in order to go to the state round up, we had to qualify at the local/regional level first. Originally at the regional level, I got 1st in my county in Hippology, and 1st overall for Seniors (ages 14-18) in Western MA. And I placed 3rd in my county for Horse Judging, and 8th overall for Seniors in Western MA.

The State Round Up was held at a water park/hotel, and we were there for the whole weekend, and it was wicked fun. =D

Friday we got there late, ate, studied with my leader, and then crashed. xD
Saturday was Hippology and Horse Bowl. I ended up getting 5th overall for Seniors in Massachusetts in Hippology. The top four placing seniors get to go to Nationals in KY in November, and the fifth place person is the alternate. So I get to study and stuff with the team, and if any one of the top four drops out, I get to go to Kentuckyyyyyy. =D

Then this morning we had Horse Judging. We had five classes to judge - HUS, Western Pleasure, Hunt Seat Eq. w/ a pattern, Appaloosa in Hand, and Hunter in Hand. They were pretty hard since half the horses we had to judge were spazzes, had bad riders, or were lame. -.o
I placed the HUS and WP classes correctly, and only missed by one or two places on the others.
Then we had to present reasons for HUS and Hunter in Hand. I did good on my reasons for Hunter In Hand, but I completely failed on my reasons for HUS. It took me like, 30 seconds, when it should take you around a minute or a minute and a half. xD
I still managed to place 9th overall for Seniors in MA out of like, 40 people or so that qualified from 11 counties. The amount of people and counties was around the same for the Hippology too.

2009-04-19T22:15:00.001-04:00

2009-04-19T22:14:00.001-04:00

The blue looks better. =]

2009-04-19T22:09:00.001-04:00

I'm not really sure I'm liking the yellow, but at least it's better than the black.
I'm gonna try and find another color, maybe.

2009-04-19T21:52:00.002-04:00

I fail at keeping this updated. =\

Anyways. I'm excited for like, SO MANY THINGS.
This weekend we're going to the state Round-Up for 4-H. 1st in Western Mass for Hippology bitchhhh. I'm something of importance in Horse Judging as well, but I don't care much about that. I hate horse judging. xD So I'm hoping to at least place in Hippology on the state level. Being able to go to Kentucky for getting in the top 4 would be pretty sick too, but I doubt it's going to happen. Lmao.
Then there's Granby Pony Club on May 17th. Best. Show. Everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Me & Jennie are grooming for Rachel and Apple, and I'm determined to take as many pictures as I can, of everyone XD.
Then Cape Cod for the last weekend in May. <33333
I really wish I was still going for 2 weeks in the summer, but if all I can get is one weekend, I'll take it.
Graduation the Friday after I come home. =D D= I want to get out of there and graduate, but I don't want to leave. =\
Then North Carolinaaaaaaaa. We leave two days after graduation, for 2 weeks. Wild ponies, and riding on the beach. =DDD
And thennnn, our 4-H club's horse show is on the 28th of June. 3rd year!

THEN OMGZ REGIONALS AT THE END OF JULY/BEGINNING OF AUGUST. =D =D =D =D =D =D
Okay, so I lied. Granby Pony Club is the second best show ever. So what? Regionals is totally the best.
Honestly, what's better than sleeping in a camper for 3 hot nights, and being confined to the local fairgrounds for an even hotter 4 days straight, and doing nothing but showing horses? NOTHING. Bitch.

So yeah, that's about it for the next like, 4 months. xD

2009-04-06T17:00:00.000-04:00

I really need to update this thing more often. =\

2009-03-11T22:04:00.001-04:00

I could do anything on this horse. Honestly anything.
I miss him. <3

2009-03-11T21:40:00.003-04:00

Ftw.
I'd appreciate it if all this fighting stopped.
My parents are fighting pretty much daily now, over incredibly stupid stuff.
My sister fights with me numerous times a day.
I'm currently in an argument with my friend, which has been happening a lot lately as well.
And on fucking VD and YR, almost every god damned topic is currently a fight.
Everyone is getting so worked about the stupidest and most pointless things.
And I'm even fucking fighting with myself.
I just spent close to an hour talking to my friend about how much I freaking fail at riding, because I've been nothing but scared shitless for the past one and a half years.
I'd really like my mind to stop being a bitch and let me fucking enjoy riding, just for once.
I'm sick of not being able to get over my fear, and I'd really like to not have to fight with myself almost daily about how much of a crappy rider I am, mental wise, and how I can't get the fact through my head that I'm not going to die every time I get on a damn horse.

Everyone can seriously just piss off today.

2009-03-01T00:42:00.000-05:00

2009-02-12T21:36:00.003-05:00

I stood in my room last night, just holding Buster's halter, for about 15 minutes.
Just standing there.
He only wore it once, but it's all I have left of him.

I can't thank you enough for everything you taught me, and all of the amazing rides you gave me. You taught me so many valuable lessons, and you taught me about so many of the little details of riding, that I never knew were important before, and you started to give me some of my confidence back. Something that I don't think I would ever have been able to accomplish with any other horse. No other horse would be as tolerable of me as you were.
You're an amazing horse, and you deserve nothing but the best. I hope your new owner, whoever he or she may be, can give you that. I'll never forget you. <3

2009-02-08T21:28:00.001-05:00

To Write Love On Her Arms Day is Fridayyyy.
Write "Love" on your arm! Plz? Kthx!
No, seriously. Do it. Or I'll shank you.
Really.
I will.

2009-02-08T20:17:00.001-05:00

Silly Quarter Horse thinks he's an Arabian. =P

2009-02-08T12:54:00.003-05:00

Buster is possibly the cutest horse. Ever. YOU CAN'T DENY IT.

2009-02-06T18:58:00.001-05:00

Wtffffff.
My parents are freaking interrogating me.
I bought a book off line, called Thirteen Reasons Why, someone on a website that I go on asked if anyone had read it, and what they though about it, so I looked it up, and it sounded interesting. It deals with suicide though, but I like reading those kinds of books, because I've been through that before and so I can kinda of relate with the characters and stuff. It's personal to me and it's just interesting to read stories like that. So I ordered it yesterday offline.
So I left the receipt for the book out on the printer and my mom went and looked the book up, and she like wtf, why are you reading this book. At first she asked me what it was about, and I was just like, idk, I forget, because I KNEW she would question me about it. So she asked me why I didn't tell her, and why I lied to her, and I was just like, because I knew you were gonna questions me about it like this.
So now they're wondering why I would want to read a book like that, because they're automatically assuming that I'm back into that state of mind. Which I'm not, and I never will be again. I can guarantee that. It's not something that I think about doing anymore, but it is something that I still like to read about, or talk about, because suicide and self injury awareness and stuff is a big part of my life now, and I'm always willing to talk about it because I know that it's a topic that isn't talked about nearly enough as it should be, so it's important to me to raise awareness and educate people about it.
So now they're jumping on me about it. >.<
I understand that they would be worried to some degree, because they don't want me to go through that again, but I know that I'm not going to, and I don't feel like that. But it's not just the fact that they're worried, they're pissed beyond all belief that I'm reading something like that, and that can't just accept that I think it's an interesting book, and it's just something that sounds like it would be good to read.
And then, a few years ago, they found out that I read a book called Cut by Patricia McCormick, and it was the same situation. I read it because it was personal to me, and it was just simply an interesting book. So just because I read a book about cutting, they automatically accused me of doing it. And they just brought it up again when they were questioning me about the first book, and they asked me if I knew anyone that had ever cut themselves, and I said yeah, because I know a bunch of people that have, so they were like who, and asked me if it was any of my friends. I said yeah, because there's a bunch of people from school and stuff that have, and they asked me who. Obviously I'm not gonna tell my parents who, so I was just like, idk, you don't know any of them, and so my stepdad got pissed at me because he just asked if it was any of my friends. Er, sorry, but you don't know every single person I've ever hung out with, or that I'm friends with within school or anything.

UGH. It just pisses me off how much they jump on me about crap like that. I understand they don't want me to go through it again, but I'm not going to, and they know that. I'm happier now then I was before I ever went through any of that, and they know that as well. It's just the fact that they honestly get PISSED, just because I want to read a book that has to do with subject, because it's interesting to me. Just because I'm interested in it, doesn't mean I'm going to do it, or that I feel that way.

jigsdgds0selfh.

2009-01-20T19:27:00.002-05:00

My parents are in the other room, talking about Obama, AGAIN.
No, I shouldn't say talking.
Discriminating is a better word.
Because he's fucking black.
I can't even believe how racist they are.
It's ridiculous.
I'm honestly the ONLY person in my family, not just in my house, but my whole entire extended family, that isn't a racist, except my sister, because she's thankfully too young. And I'm hoping she stays that way. I swear if she ends up thinking the same way my parents do, I'm never gonna forgive them. You know what, even if she ends up having the same opinions that they do, I won't even care half as bad if she comes up with those opinions on her own. At least they'll be her own thoughts, no matter how much I disagree with them.

My mom had to make an appointment for my brother at the doctors office for something, and it's a new doctor's office. They had to ask my mom a bunch of questions, including her race and stuff. She goes "Why the hell do they need to know what color I am?" And she goes "Yeah, I should've told them I was black and I would've gotten an appointment the next day, 'cause they're always the first priority."
Uhm, sorry, that's NOT how it works. That may be how you want to see it, because you think black and Hispanic people are worthless, but it's not right.
And then she said "Well I told them before that both of us worked, so that should've given them the clue that we were white."
There's isn't even a response I can give to that. It's so utterly ridiculous and racist, that I have nothing to say to it. Do you know how many WHITE people only have one parent working? Does that still make them better then blacks, just because they're white? Even though they have the same circumstance, I can guarantee you my family would only criticize the black family with one parent working, and not the white family.

Honestly, I don't care if you're for or against Obama. That's not what this whole post is about. It's about the fact that people are STILL to fucking ignorant to realize that it doesn't matter what color skin people have, or what their ethnic background is. Even if 2 people, a black and a white person, had the same exact situation going on, for example the one parent working thing that I mentioned above, it's really freaking ridiculous that people, including my parents, are still so close-minded, even in today's world, to only criticize the black person, just because they still think whites are better than everyone else.

Seriously, open up your mind and stop being so ignorant. You live in America for God's sakes.

2009-01-02T09:31:00.008-05:00

Can I just say how much I love Taylor Swift?
She's got a freaking amazing voice, she's wicked pretty, and she doesn't fake anything. Unlike 98% of other singers today. >.< She actually recognizes that little kids look up to her, and that she's a role model. She doesn't do anything stupid, and she actually has values. Even if you don't like country music, there's no way you can't like her, or at least appreciate her for what she does.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZU_XImyTKy8 - @ 6:48
http://music.aol.com/video/change-aol-sessions/taylor-swift/2361907
http://music.aol.com/video/love-story-aol-sessions/taylor-swift/2361881

2008-12-28T16:03:00.006-05:00

I love Buster. <3 He tolerates so much, lmao.

He's so handsome. =]

2008-12-22T16:39:00.003-05:00

Click to make them bigger. >.< Stupid Blogger never makes them the right size.

2008-12-21T17:40:00.002-05:00

Horse Survey
100 Question Riding Quiz
*YOU*

1. How old were you when you first started riding?:
12

2. First horse ridden:
Besides the random ponies at fairs & stuff, Kipper.

3. First horse trotted on:
Kipper

4. First horse cantered on:
Zoe

5. First Horse fallen off of:
Montel

6. Most recent horse fallen off of:
Tucker

7. First horse you trotted over poles with:
Oh idk, Zoe probably?

8. First horse jumped with:
Spirit

9. First horse who ran away with you:
I think Pie maybe? It was only a few strides, but I can't remember if it was him first or Montel.

10. First horse that scared the crap out of you:
No idea? Lol.

11. First horse shown?:
Zoe

12. First horse to win a class with:
Zoe

13. Do you/have you taken lessons:
Yep

14. First horse you ever rode bareback:
Zoe

15. First horse trail ridden with:
Rick, lmao.

16. Current Barn name:
Strain Family Equestrian Center

17. Do you ride English or western?
English

18. First Horse to place at a show with:
Zoe

19. Ever been to horse camp?:
Yep

20. Ever been to a riding clinic?:
I've watched a few, and been to an unmounted clinic.

21. Ridden sidesaddle?:
No

22. First horse leased:
Justin

23. First horse owned:
No one yet, but hopefully Buster! =D

24. Highest ribbon in a show:
1st

25. Ever been to an 'A' rated show?:
No

26. Ever competed in pony games/relay races?:
Yeah

27. Ever fallen off at a show:
Lmao, yeah.

28. Do you ride Hunter/Jumpers?
Yes

29. Have you ever barrel raced?
For fun at camp and stuff.

30. Ever done pole bending?
No

31. Favorite gait:
Trot

32. Ever galloped bareback?:
Nope

33. Have you ever done dressage?
For like, a week, lmao.

34. Have you ever evented?
No

35. Have you ever mucked a stall?
Yeah

36. Ever been bucked off?
Yes >.<

37. Ever been on a horse that reared?
Yep

38. Horses or ponies?
Ponies

39. Do you wear a helmet?
Yep

40. What's the highest you've jumped:
2'3", like, once.

41. Have you ever ridden at night?
Yeah

42. Do you watch horsey television shows?
Yeah

43. Have you ever been seriously hurt/injured from a fall?
Yep. Broke both bones in my left forearm, and had to have surgery on it. Damn horse, lol.

44. Have you ever ridden without anything (no saddle, bridle, halter ect.
Yep

45. Do you ride in an arena or ring?
Uhm, what's the difference? xD

46. Have you ever been trampled by a horse?
No

47. Have you ever been bitten?
Yep

48. Ever had your foot stepped on by a horse?
Yepp

49. Do you clean your tack regularly?
Only before shows, lol.

50. Ever played ride-a-buck?
Yep

*YOUR HORSE*
51. Show Name: Bustin' Out Blue

52. Barn Name: Buster

53. Any nicknames?
I call him Buster Duster for some reason. xD

54. Breed: Appaloosa

55. Goes english or western: English

56. Sex?
Gelding

57. Age: 8/9

58. Primary Discepline?
Hunters

59. Show experience?
I have a feeling he was shown with his old owners, but I'm not positive. I'll be showing him though next year.

60. Good on the trail?
No idea actually, lol.

61. Did you train this horse yourself?
Nope

62. Vices?
Nothing really. He's just retarded. xD

63. Spooky?
Nopee. I've only seen him spook once.

64. Is your horse able to be ridden bareback?
Yeah

65. Does your horse come when you call?
Sure

66. Is your horse good with children and other horses?
Children, yes. Other horses? Eh, depends. xD Lately he's learned to hate almost every horse at the barn, but there are still a few he doesn't mind.

67. Is your horse worked regularly:
Yep

68. Ever a lesson horse?
Currently

69. Does your horse like treats?
Yes? He's a horse, lmao.

70. Do you take lessons on your horse?
Yep

71. Is your horse easy to work around?
Yeah

72. Has your horse ever escaped from it's stall?
Not that I know of

73. Do you feel safe on your horse?
Yeah. Except when he's having a bad jumping day. xD

74. Is your horse hard to worm?
No idea

75. Is your horse good for the farrier vet?
No idea xD

76. Have you ever won a class with your horse?
Yepp =]

77. Have you ever had a moment where you feel really connected to your horse?
Mhmm

78. Does your horse like hay?
Again, he's a horse. Of course he does, lmao.

79. Does your horse have special feed or supplement?
Not right now.

80. Does your horse often have a very messy stall?
Not really. He's pretty good about not destroying it. xD

81. Does your horse use any special tack?
Nope

82. Do you use a whip and spurs?
Crop

83. Does your horse like to run?
Eh, not really? I've never seen him run. xD

84. How many times a week do you ride your horse?
Right now, only once a week, and that's only sometimes. xD

85. Does your horse have markings?
Yepp. He's spotty! =D

86. Do you braid your horse for shows?
I will if I'm not lazy. xD

87. What color is your horse's halter?
Uhm, right now I believe it's green?

88. Does your horse follow you?
Yeah

89. Can your horse backup?
Barely xD

90. Is your horse's trot easier to sit to or post to?
Mm, either or. Doesn't really make a difference. He's pretty smooth either way.

91. Have you ever dressed your horse up for halloween?
Nope

92. Describe your horse in one word:
Special.

93. Has your horse ever produced offspring?
No idea, but I doubt it, lol.

94. Do you and your horse have "colors"?
Blue/brown.

95. What is your horse's favorite treat?
French fries, or anything with SALT. Omfg, it's his crack. xD

96. Do you normally lunge your horse before riding?
Nope

97. Has your horse ever given a pony ride?
No idea

98. How many people owned this horse before you?
No idea.

99. Does your horse get dirty easily?
Yes. He's white. >.<

100. What's your favorite horsey memory?
Lotss.

2008-12-19T14:13:00.002-05:00

Where did you begin 2008?
At mah house.

Did you have to go to the hospital?
No

Did you have any encounters with the police?
My stepdad got pulled over, and I was in teh car if that counts.

Where did you go on vacation?
Cape Coddd

What did you purchase that was over $500?
I got a $700 camera, but it was a gift. So nothing technically.

Did you know anybody who got married?
Don't think so.

Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yeah

What sporting events did you attend?
Horse shows, soccer games.

What concerts/shows did you go to?
Uhm, school concerts? xD

Describe your birthday.
Amazing?

What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2008?
Uh...no idea.

What has/have been your favorite moment(s)?
A bunch

Any new additions to your family?
Yeah

What was your best month?
Idk really

Who has been your best drinking buddy?
I don't drink yo son.

Made new friends?
Mhm

Favorite Night[s] out?
I don't really have nights out. xD

Any regrets?
Not really

What do you want to change in 2009?
Idkk

Overall, how would you rate this year?
10/10

Have any life changes in 2008?
I guess? Idk.

Change your hairstyle?
Ugh. No. Soon though!

Get a new job?
No

How old did you turn this year?
17

Did anything embarrassing?
Lmao, obviously. Who doesn't?

Get married or divorced?
TOTALLY

Be honest - did you watch American Idol?
Nope. Haven't in years.

Start a new hobby?
Not really

Been snowboarding?
Nope

Are you happy to see 2008 go?
Idk. Not really but I don't care.

Drank Starbucks in 2008?
Nope

Been naughty or nice?
Nice? Lol.

What are you wishing for in 2009?
MY PONEH AND FOR TO DOZ WELL IN HORSEY SHOWZ WIT HIM. =D

2008-12-18T20:38:00.006-05:00

I make pretty pictures. =D

2008-12-15T16:55:00.002-05:00

I kept meaning to update this thing, but I keep forgetting. xD

We had the Regional Hippology Contest saturday, and I place 1st for my county in Seniors (ages 14-18) and 1st overall in Western MA for Seniors.

Yesterday we went Christmas caroling at a local nursing home for community service for 4-H.

Then after that we went to Deana's house for our 4-H Christmas party. We got our jackets, so we're like, officially a real club now. xD Not really, but every other club in our county has like jackets & stuff, so it feels cool to finally have them after like 3 years.

And I got to see Justin! I haven't seen him in a while, so it was really good to see him. =]

2008-12-07T17:51:00.002-05:00

Uhm, holy freaking noodles.

My mom bought me a Rebel for my birthday...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I <333333 it. =D

I've had a seriously freaking awesome birthday.=]

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2008-12-01T17:56:00.002-05:00

Buster is a freaking SAINT.

There's no other word to describe him.

He's such a good boy.

I <3>

2008-11-25T20:41:00.000-05:00

YO SON.

MY BIRFDAY IS DECEMBA 5TH.

BAI ME SUMTHIN.

=D

KTHX.

2008-11-23T16:52:00.010-05:00

Sooo we had Horse Judging yesterday. It was the first time any of us from my 4-H group competed in Horse Judging.
There were some tough classes to judge, but it was a pretty fun day.

We had to judge Miniature Halter, Draft Horse Geldings in Hand, Sporthorse in Hand, Hunter Under Saddle, and Wester Pleasure, with 4 horses in each class.
I placed the Western Pleasure class correctly, and in Hunter Under Saddle and Draft Horse Geldings in Hand, I got 3 out of 4 placings correct. I got 2 out of 4 placings correct in both Miniature Halter and Sporthorse in Hand.

Seniors had to give reasons for Miniature Halter and Western Pleasure.
For my Miniature Halter reasons I got 41 out of 50 points, and for Western Pleasure, I got 36 out of 50 points.

I came in 3rd place for Hampden County Seniors, out of around 15 or so.
And then I came in 8th place overall out of all 30 seniors for all of Western MA. =]

Another girl from my club, Ashlyn, placed 4th in Hampden County Seniors, and 9th overall for seniors.

2008-11-18T18:51:00.002-05:00

What.
The.
Fuck.

I HATE the fact that my family is so God damn fucking racist.

Today we were out at dinner, and this man came in with his wife, and he was Cuban. You could tell that he was mentally handicapped or something, because he was yelling out things, and he wasn't speaking right and stuff, and you could just tell. Well, at least I could tell. >.<

My grandma looks at my aunt and goes "Ok, is this guy challenged, or is he just an asshole?" and then my grandpa goes "He probably just came straight off the boat."

WTF.

2008-11-17T18:36:00.001-05:00

Jalissa told me that my eyes were too pretty for me. I wasn't good enough to have eyes that pretty. xD I guess that's a compliment? Lmao.

2008-11-17T18:34:00.002-05:00

Equine Affaire <333333
It was love.
We went on Saturday, then went to Pfizer Fantasia that night.
We saw Clinton Anderson do a demo, and Gina Miles teach a jumping clinic.
I got a saddle pad and a matching fly bonnet, a bit warmer, a new french link D-ring snaffle, and I renewed my subscription to Massachusetts Horse magainze.

2008-11-13T16:48:00.000-05:00

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2008-11-11T20:43:00.001-05:00

When the sun came up,
We were sleeping in,
Sunk inside our blankets,
Sprawled across the bed,
And we were dreaming,

There are moments when,
When I know it and
The world revolves around us,
And we're keeping it,
Keep it all going,
This delicate balance,
Vulnerable all knowing,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, kill for this

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would...

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything,
We're glad for what we've got,
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would....

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything.

2008-11-10T01:29:00.002-05:00

RAWR.

I'm angry about this weekend. Someone that was supposed to show up didn't. >.<

It was still fun though.
Hopefully she'll show up on the next trip.

My grandma is talking to Chris about Buster soon. Like, soon, soon. She wanted to do it this weekend, but me & Jennie aren't going to the barn this weekend, we're going to Equine Affaire instead. So she's gonna find out a day when she's gonna be free during the week or something and let me know so we can go up there. =]

2008-11-03T18:51:00.003-05:00

I feel like drawing.
Maybe I'll start on the names for all the Christmas presents I'm making for everyone.
If I don't start now, I probably will never get them done.
I have to finish reading that stupid permit book though. I'm almost done. >.<

2008-11-03T18:46:00.003-05:00

It's ok everyone, I know I'm a failure.
Yet again.
I never seem to be able to do anything right.
I'm just a fuck up. It's ok though, I'm used to it.
He lets me know all the time.
What great parenting though, don't you think?
Always letting a kid know how hard she fails.
Yepp. A+ for parental lectures.

2008-11-02T14:53:00.002-05:00

I hate how I ride backwards.
Not literally, obviously? But like, in my head.

Yesterday my trainer wanted me to ride Zeke for her. He's one of the schoolies, and he's good as a push button horse, for walk/trotters that don't do anything. But a lot of them are starting to want to canter, and they are getting better with their riding, but that can't do it on him. He's a little snot when it comes to cantering for them, and all he does is get out of control and trot as fast as he can and charges into the canter like a mad beast. So my trained wanted me to school him for her, so he remembers what a correct canter transition is, and so he remembers how to do one. xD

But anyways, I had no problem with him. I knew that I had to ride defensively with him, and I was going to have to get after him most likely. And I was fine with it. Whenever I get on horses that I'm comfortable with, and that I know they know what they're doing, like Buster or someone, is more when I tend to get nervous. But if I get asked to school a horse like that, or I'm riding a horse that I know I'm going to have to get after and ride defensively, is when I don't get nervous? I actually enjoyed riding him, and I was kind of looking forward to it. I was in the mood to train a horse. I wasn't scared at all, and I had completely faith in myself that I could ride this horse, and get him to do what he needed to do.

On a horse that knows what he's doing, and will do it without any problem when I ask, are the horses that I doubt myself on. Maybe I was brain damaged as a child.

2008-11-02T14:48:00.002-05:00

Show pictures.

From the show photographer.
http://millersalbums.com/Event/ViewImages.aspx?ViewFavorites=True&ecid=nWITceEtyv0%3d&ts=633612296064768350&size=6
Click on View Slideshow to make them bigger if you want. The zoom button doesn't really do anything, lmao.

Omfg, I got SO freaking left behind in IMG_9962. xDD.

2008-10-27T09:24:00.003-04:00

Horse show yesterdayyyy. =]

Buster is a freaking saint. He was soooooooooo good yesterday. Since it was a schooling show at my barn, and they used mostly the lesson horses, he got ridden like a million times, and almost everyone used him for their jumping class, because he's like, the only decent jumper we have as a schoolie right now. But he still behaved all day, and he carried everyone around with no problem.
Our first class was Equitation, and he did so well. He got his leads and everything and he moved wicked nice for me. We got 1st. =]
Next classes was pleasure. He did really well in this class too. Only problem was that he had a little issue picking up the canter, which was my fault. He got really unbalanced in the corner, and he couldn't pick it up right, so it took us the whole long side of the arena to pick it up. We placed 3rd in that class.
After that was command. He did everything right when I asked, and he did all his canter departs like, right when I asked. We got 1st in that class as well. =]
Then our last class was x-rails. He was a little fast when we did lines, so he took off kind of big in those, but I can't blame him. He was probably wicked tired and sick of jumping. >.<>

We ended up getting Champion! =D It was my first champion or reserve champion or anything like that. I was so proud of Buster. =] He's such a good boy. <3

Walking
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPl-ZyZAvnc
Trotting
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n684vDWGohQ
Cantering
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7iv4ILzrBWw
Jumping. I know that I'm not consistent in this course, I switch from the trot to the canter. My plan was to do the whole thing at a trot, but he likes to canter in between jumps, so I kind of just let him go with. If I interfered with him right before the jump, he would've gotten all screwy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rQ-z2CwyYZs

I might put up videos of some of the whole classes if I get a chance to upload them. But they're all like 6 minutes long, so idk when I'll get a chance to, because those will take forever to upload. >.<

Pictures will be up at some point.

2008-10-25T04:00:00.002-04:00

So someone needs to buy me one of these. [Video starts at 0:29]

And one of these.

Omfg. xDDDDDD One of these ninja cats too.

2008-10-22T19:24:00.003-04:00

Soooo the barn owner called me back today. Buster is actually $6500. >.<> But I just got home from school (I was helping out at an open house after school, so I just got home) and my mom was like "So I hear Buster's a little too expensive?" I was like mhmm...And she said "There's no other horses you're interested in there? Just Buster?" I just said yeppp. So she was like, "Well, I asked Nana (my grandma) how much they'd be willing to spend on a horse, and once she figures it out, me and Ricky (my stepdad) can probably pay the rest as your graduation present from us. Then once you get a real job, you can make some payments and pay us back for some of him."

So as long as he passes the vet check in the next month or so, I'm deff. buying him. =]

2008-10-21T19:04:00.005-04:00

Buster has to have rabies. There's no other explanation for his actions. xDDD

2008-10-21T18:57:00.002-04:00

Buster had his hocks injected on Friday. Finally. =] So hopefully he'll be feeling good this weekend. We'll have to see, but I'm hoping that he'll be completely sound now, and that he'll be happy and moving well.

Saturday I had a lesson on Diamond. He's sooooo smooth. But at the trot, he gets nervous about the rider catching him in the mouth whenever he goes forward, becuase he's used to having so many little kids and beginner riders on him who catch him in the mouth whenever he goes faster than a turtle. So it was kind of hard to ride that, but other than that, he was good. =]

I called the barn owner yesterday and left a message about Buster and how much he was and that I was interested in him and everything. So I'm just waiting for her to call me back. Hopefully she'll get back to me by tomorrow.

2008-10-14T18:17:00.001-04:00

So I just went to dinner with my grandparents and I brought up the topic of the pre-purchase exam (700 freaking dollars! >.<). I was worried that I was going to have to pay for it by myself, becuase they said that they were only going to pay for my horse, and everything else I'd have to pay for by myself. But since it's pretty much like, included in buying a horse, they said that they'd pay for ittttt!. =]=]=]

AND AND AND! My parents said that they'd help me out with board a little bit, so that means I can stay at my barn! I was looking into other barns in my area that were cheaper, because I wasn't going to be able to afford to pay board at my barn by myself, becuase it's kind of expensive, but I reallllllyyyyyy didn't want to have to leave my barn, and have to go somewhere else and leave all the people at my barn and everything, and now I don't have toooooo!

*is exciteddddddddddddddd =D =D*

So I'm talking to the barn owner in like 2 -3 weeks about buying Buster. :) :) :)

Jennie jumping Buster in her lesson on Saturday -

2008-10-13T00:36:00.007-04:00

Fail update.

Ok, I haven't posted in forever. x.x My lesson went reallllly well last week. I rode Buster, and he was awesome. =] I jumped him, and I got to do a 2' vertical a few times with him. Only at the trot, at 2' is nothing incredible, it's actually really tiny, but still. It felt really good. :]

Then I had another lesson yesterday. It was another half hour private in the afternoon, and I rode Chester. It wasn't as bad as the first time I rode him, but he was still really hard to get used to. He's got so much freaking power packed into such a small little horse. Everyone says I look so good on him, and that I look so pretty on him, and when my instructor was talking to me after my lesson yesterday she was like "You know, I hate to tell you, but you do look really good on him." She said I looked really secure and good on him, but I really felt like my leg was wobbling all over the place, and that it was soooooo unsecure. And I felt like I was posting huge, but my instructor said I actually looked perfect, it just felt big to me. *shrugs*

I get to ride Buster next week, and we're gonna practice a small course outside, to get ready for the barn's schooling show in 2 weeks. I haven't jumped outside in like, forever. I honestly can't remember the last time I jumped outside was. But Buster jumped sooooo good for Jen outside yesterday, he was really nice and soft, and was cantering so softly in between the jumps, and he wasn't jumping big or rushing at all, so I'm hoping he'll be have that well for me. xD

We're making these lesson times our permanent lesson times too. Which I'm actually really liking. It's actually really helping me a lot. When we had our lesson first thing in the morning, for an hour, I think that that was part of what has been bugging me. When I fall asleep, I was already thinking about what would happen in my lesson the next morning, because it was first thing. When I woke up, I would already be thinking about it, and I'd think about it all the way to the barn, and we'd be rushing around in the morning, and we'd usually be first to ride.

Now with these lesson times, I get to sleep later, it's not all I think about when I fall asleep, and when I get up, we're not rushing around, and I get to just like hang out for a while before we leave, so it's not the first and only thing that I think of when I get up. And we get to the barn like an hour or two early, so we just walk around and hang out ahead of time, so that keeps my mind off of it too. If riding is all I think about, and I don't keep my mind busy with something else, that's when my mind starts to wander, and get ideas of it's own, and that's how I get all worked up about it, before I even get on my horse. So this new time and stuff is really helping so far, and I'm really liking it. =]

Wow. o.O Long post.

2008-10-08T15:01:00.000-04:00

If evil is attractive, then call me the devil.

2008-10-01T18:33:00.002-04:00

Argh. >.< Stupid grounding. I'm freaking grounded from the computer because I apparently hate my little sister, according to my stepdad, and I didn't LOOK at her when I said hi to her last week.
Whatever.

I had another lesson on Saturday. It went ok at first, but then once we started to do some cantering and jumping, it started to go downhill. I rode Ace again, and he has a very short strided canter, and it's very uncomfortable to sit to. And he gets strong after jumps. He's fine riding up to the jump, and the actual jump is fine, but he just like takes off after. My instructor gave us, well, mostly me, this lecture at the end of our lesson, about how we could do more, and we had to push ourselves to do more. She doesn't know anything about my accident, and that I have confidence issues, so she just assumed that I wasn't pushing myself, and that I just wasn't "there" that day. So later in the day, I went to her and I talked to her about it. I apologized for my lesson, and I told her that I had a bad fall last year. I said that most days I'm fine, but some days I wake up and it's just all I think about. It like, literally takes over my mind, and I can't think at all when I'm riding. It just replays over and over in my head. She said that she understands, and that I just need to talk to her, and let her know how I'm feeling at the time.

This week, my sister has a soccer game at freaking 8 in the morning (WHO DOES ANY SORT OF PHYSICAL ACTIVITY WILLINGLY AT 8 AM?) so my lesson is rescheduled to 2:30. It's a half hour private, so all the attention is going to be focused on me, and hopefully I'll get somewhere. >.<>.<

So I guess we'll see how it goes.

2008-09-20T23:53:00.002-04:00

Today's lesson was different. I've been sick the past few days, and just walking up a flight of stairs gets me really winded, so I told my instructor that I didn't know how much I'd be able to keep up - but I'd do what I could. So she told me I could pretty much just do what I wanted, and I could take a break whenever I needed it, no asking. Ace was the horse that I rode. I've only ridden him a few times before. He's not completely horrible, but he's not my favorite. It's just his canter that bothers me. He just has a very odd stride, and I don't do good with odd-strided horses, xD.

We rode in the outdoor grass ring. I figured since it was very cold this morning, and it was definitely feeling like the beginning of fall, we'd probably ride inside. Nope. We had to "get outside and enjoy the sun!" Great. >.< I have like, a humongous fear of the outdoor grass ring. I can't ride in there, like, at all. I get freaked out and start shaking and getting so nervous before I even step foot in the ring. If you tell me to ride in the outdoor dressage arena, in the middle of the property, with no fence around it at all, sure, I'll ride in that. But ask me to ride in the grass ring outside, that's fenced in, and enclosed? Nope, not having it. Seems pretty backwards, doesn't it?
The grass ring is where I had my accident last year. My horse spooked while he was going down the side of the grass ring where there's pretty much a wall of trees, and then right behind the trees is the road. And now, almost every single time I've ridden in the grass ring since my accident, the horse that I'm riding has spooked. Not EVERY time since then, but let's say about 8 out of 10 times or so. I just can't ride in there. I can't trust any horse in there anymore, even if I know they're bombproof. Whenever we're in that ring, and my horse's ears go up, and they get alert, I get nervous. I can almost feel them spooking underneath me, even if they don't move a muscle. I just expect it's going to happen. And I don't handle spooks well. >.< I practically tear up riding in that ring, even if my horse just trips or something, because I just automatically expect him to spook. I hate it. So much.

But anyways, so pretty much all I did outside today was walk and trot. I actually trotted a lot more than I though I would, because Ace was being really good. Better than I expected him to be. I kept him on a fairly tight rein most of the time though, and I was leaning forward the whole time, just like, anticipating him to do something stupid. Which is obviously the completely opposite of what you should do, but I've already explain that I handle things pretty backwards. >.< So towards the end of my lesson, I realized that I'd made it through almost a whole hour without him doing anything. He put his ears up and acted really alert and uppity a few times, and I almost shit a brick each time, but I slowly trusted him more and more. I told myself to just trust him, and give him a looser rein. And so I did. I let a few braids slip out of my hands, and then I went around the ring a few times, and then let out a few more braids, and then some more. And it felt incredible to be able to do that. He did speed up a little bit a few times when I did that, so I got nervous a few times, but I was trotting around on a fairly loose rein, and I felt really good about it. I even let my defenses down long enough to voluntarily trot around the grass ring without stirrups.

I know I need to get over my stupid fear of that ring, but I just, like, can't. Yeah, can't is a bad word, I know. Don't ever say it. But until I find where my confidence has been hiding since my accident, it's hard for me to not say it. I hate it though, and I just wish I could get over it so bad. I WANT to get over my stupid fear of riding in that god damn ring, but I just can't. I get too scared. >.<

UGH.

2008-09-16T21:52:00.001-04:00

Well I finally got around to making a video for Rachel & Apple at States. Here it is. =]

2008-09-14T21:59:00.000-04:00

Wimpy's Little Chic.
I freaking LOVE this mare. She's an amazing horse, and she's a phenomenal reiner. She's the 2007 NRHA Open Reining Futurity Champion. Her rider was Shawn Flarida (who's also and AMAZING reining rider) with a score of 231.
This is her winning run.
This amazing mare is possibly the best reiner of all time. She's just amazing at what she does, and she's so athletic and so light and sensitive to her rider. It doesn't hurt that she's gorgeous as well. =]

2008-09-11T21:46:00.003-04:00

Seriously folks. People in the horse world need to stop being so god damn stupid and selfish, and to think of their horse for once. I'm sick of people jumping young horses, just because they want to jump, and they have no patience, so they just get on with it and jump their young horses. JUST RIDE ANOTHER GOD DAMN HORSE. For Christ's sake. Honestly people. Just because you see another idiot jumping their 3 year old, doesn't mean it's right, or that you should do it too. Horses aren't physically or mentally ready to jump until they are AT LEAST 5 years old. Some lighter horses, even older. Stop being selfish and training your horse to jump early just because you want to jump now. Go take lessons at a local barn who has horses that you can jump, or borrow a friend's horse. What's the problem with waiting two years until your horse is of age to jump? They're still going to jump the same when they are 5 instead of 3, so I don't see what the problem in waiting is. The only thing your doing by jumping your horse at 3 or 4 is pretty much guaranteeing early lameness and leg problems, along with setting the horse up to burn out at an early age and get sour to jumping. Seriously people, just wait. For your horse's sake.

2008-09-08T22:19:00.003-04:00

I wasn't completely sure on all of the placings that Rachel got this weekend at States, but I just found them all out, so here they are.

93 out of 100 in Fitting & Showmanship. She got a perfect 40 on the Fitting portion!
1st in Egg & Spoon
3rd in Barrel Racing
2nd in Pole Bending
5th in Keyhole
8th in Equitation
4th in Trail
5th in Pleasure
6th in Pony Road Hack
3rd in Command

=]

2008-09-08T21:57:00.004-04:00

These are all pictures of Rachel & Apple at the 4-H State Horse Show this weekend. They did sooo good. Considering she was competing against some of the best 4-Hers in the states, she did amazing. =] I'm only posting a few pictures on here, because I got so many, but you can view all 60 or so of the pictures here.

2008-09-07T21:10:00.002-04:00

States today! And yesterday too. Rachel & Apple did awesome! They got a bunch of ribbons, and they placed in every class I think. She even got a first in egg & spoon! I got a bunch of pictures, and I'm uploading them now. I'll post some of the good ones on her once they finish.
Good weekend. =]

2008-09-05T16:11:00.002-04:00

STATES TOMORROW! =D
I've been waiting to go to States for like, ever, lol. It's the Massachusetts 4-H State Horse Show. A girl from my 4-H club, Rachel, is riding in it. So me & Jen are gonna go to cheer for her, and help her out, since in 4-H, the parents can't help with the horses at all. So that's where we come in. It's both tomorrow and Sunday. Tomorrow is Fit & Show in the morning, and then Games and the county costume class after that. And then Sunday is all the performance classes (Equitation, pleasure, command, etc.)
Hopefully it's gonna be really fun. =]

2008-09-05T15:58:00.005-04:00

WTF. This pisses me off. I don't know if you've heard about Buck or not. This is his story, if you haven't seen it yet.
Well, they just posted an update on him. His wounds look MUCH better. He's doing good. =] But this just pisses me off - "Now for the bad news. The rescue will be unable to press charges against Buck's former owners. The fact that they did call the vet when the injury happened pretty much gives them a free pass, despite the fact that they obviously didn't follow the vet's advice. The idiots got away. :("
It sickens me to think of how people can get away with crap like this. They treat animals like this, and then they just get away with it, and they go on with their merry lives, while someone else cleans up their mess for them. >.<
This is the whole update on him, with new pictures of him. =] -

2008-09-04T20:36:00.002-04:00

JANUARY! JANUARY! JANUARY! I get my first horse in four months! (Hopefully) I'm just praying there's a schoolie at my barn that I like at the time. If so, we're gonna start payments on the horse then. =]
*is excited*
Now I have to make a list of everything I need before Equine Affaire in November. xD
I actually don't need that much. I've got everything major, except for a saddle and girth, which I can't really get until I know which horse I'm getting, so I can make sure it fits. But I have almost everything else for now. I'll probably get new brushes, and maybe a new saddle pad & halter. I have a saddle pad & halter that I've only used a few times, so I could still use it on my horse, but I really want to have everything like that new, if I can.

There's a schoolie at my barn now, Buster, who's an Appy cross gelding, that I was thinking of buying, but he moves really weird, and he could appear lame to a judge at shows, and if he he ever does have any real lameness issues, which is highly possibly, he sort of already does, then I wouldn't want to have to deal with that, and I probably wouldn't have the money for a horse with leg issues. =/ He's a good horse, and I like riding him, but I just want something that's 100% sound.
Next week I'm gonna be trying out the barn's new schoolie, hopefully, if he's still there, xD. He's a chestnut gelding, around 14.2-15hh. He's got the cutest face ever, and he's got a mohawk. xD what's better than a cute pony with a mohawk? Hopefully I'll like him. =]
-Brie

2008-09-03T21:37:00.007-04:00

I'm not sure what exactly I'm gonna put on here yet. Mostly all of my horse stuff. I'll probably update when I have a lesson, or my barn/4-H club goes to a show, or when I want to rant about something stupid in the horse world. Occasionally I'll probably post some stuff about my life outside of horses, like school and stuff. But who knows. I'm not even sure if I'll keep up with this thing or not. Probably not. xD Oh well. =]
- Brie