I stood in my room last night, just holding Buster's halter, for about 15 minutes.
Just standing there.
He only wore it once, but it's all I have left of him.



I can't thank you enough for everything you taught me, and all of the amazing rides you gave me. You taught me so many valuable lessons, and you taught me about so many of the little details of riding, that I never knew were important before, and you started to give me some of my confidence back. Something that I don't think I would ever have been able to accomplish with any other horse. No other horse would be as tolerable of me as you were.
You're an amazing horse, and you deserve nothing but the best. I hope your new owner, whoever he or she may be, can give you that. I'll never forget you. <3

To Write Love On Her Arms Day is Fridayyyy.
Write "Love" on your arm! Plz? Kthx!
No, seriously. Do it. Or I'll shank you.
Really.
I will.

Silly Quarter Horse thinks he's an Arabian. =P

 

Buster is possibly the cutest horse. Ever. YOU CAN'T DENY IT.

Wtffffff.
My parents are freaking interrogating me.
I bought a book off line, called Thirteen Reasons Why, someone on a website that I go on asked if anyone had read it, and what they though about it, so I looked it up, and it sounded interesting. It deals with suicide though, but I like reading those kinds of books, because I've been through that before and so I can kinda of relate with the characters and stuff. It's personal to me and it's just interesting to read stories like that. So I ordered it yesterday offline.
So I left the receipt for the book out on the printer and my mom went and looked the book up, and she like wtf, why are you reading this book. At first she asked me what it was about, and I was just like, idk, I forget, because I KNEW she would question me about it. So she asked me why I didn't tell her, and why I lied to her, and I was just like, because I knew you were gonna questions me about it like this.
So now they're wondering why I would want to read a book like that, because they're automatically assuming that I'm back into that state of mind. Which I'm not, and I never will be again. I can guarantee that. It's not something that I think about doing anymore, but it is something that I still like to read about, or talk about, because suicide and self injury awareness and stuff is a big part of my life now, and I'm always willing to talk about it because I know that it's a topic that isn't talked about nearly enough as it should be, so it's important to me to raise awareness and educate people about it.
So now they're jumping on me about it. >.<
I understand that they would be worried to some degree, because they don't want me to go through that again, but I know that I'm not going to, and I don't feel like that. But it's not just the fact that they're worried, they're pissed beyond all belief that I'm reading something like that, and that can't just accept that I think it's an interesting book, and it's just something that sounds like it would be good to read.
And then, a few years ago, they found out that I read a book called Cut by Patricia McCormick, and it was the same situation. I read it because it was personal to me, and it was just simply an interesting book. So just because I read a book about cutting, they automatically accused me of doing it. And they just brought it up again when they were questioning me about the first book, and they asked me if I knew anyone that had ever cut themselves, and I said yeah, because I know a bunch of people that have, so they were like who, and asked me if it was any of my friends. I said yeah, because there's a bunch of people from school and stuff that have, and they asked me who. Obviously I'm not gonna tell my parents who, so I was just like, idk, you don't know any of them, and so my stepdad got pissed at me because he just asked if it was any of my friends. Er, sorry, but you don't know every single person I've ever hung out with, or that I'm friends with within school or anything.

UGH. It just pisses me off how much they jump on me about crap like that. I understand they don't want me to go through it again, but I'm not going to, and they know that. I'm happier now then I was before I ever went through any of that, and they know that as well. It's just the fact that they honestly get PISSED, just because I want to read a book that has to do with subject, because it's interesting to me. Just because I'm interested in it, doesn't mean I'm going to do it, or that I feel that way.

jigsdgds0selfh.

My parents are in the other room, talking about Obama, AGAIN.
No, I shouldn't say talking.
Discriminating is a better word.
Because he's fucking black.
I can't even believe how racist they are.
It's ridiculous.
I'm honestly the ONLY person in my family, not just in my house, but my whole entire extended family, that isn't a racist, except my sister, because she's thankfully too young. And I'm hoping she stays that way. I swear if she ends up thinking the same way my parents do, I'm never gonna forgive them. You know what, even if she ends up having the same opinions that they do, I won't even care half as bad if she comes up with those opinions on her own. At least they'll be her own thoughts, no matter how much I disagree with them.

My mom had to make an appointment for my brother at the doctors office for something, and it's a new doctor's office. They had to ask my mom a bunch of questions, including her race and stuff. She goes "Why the hell do they need to know what color I am?" And she goes "Yeah, I should've told them I was black and I would've gotten an appointment the next day, 'cause they're always the first priority."
Uhm, sorry, that's NOT how it works. That may be how you want to see it, because you think black and Hispanic people are worthless, but it's not right.
And then she said "Well I told them before that both of us worked, so that should've given them the clue that we were white."
There's isn't even a response I can give to that. It's so utterly ridiculous and racist, that I have nothing to say to it. Do you know how many WHITE people only have one parent working? Does that still make them better then blacks, just because they're white? Even though they have the same circumstance, I can guarantee you my family would only criticize the black family with one parent working, and not the white family.

Honestly, I don't care if you're for or against Obama. That's not what this whole post is about. It's about the fact that people are STILL to fucking ignorant to realize that it doesn't matter what color skin people have, or what their ethnic background is. Even if 2 people, a black and a white person, had the same exact situation going on, for example the one parent working thing that I mentioned above, it's really freaking ridiculous that people, including my parents, are still so close-minded, even in today's world, to only criticize the black person, just because they still think whites are better than everyone else.

Seriously, open up your mind and stop being so ignorant. You live in America for God's sakes.

Can I just say how much I love Taylor Swift?
She's got a freaking amazing voice, she's wicked pretty, and she doesn't fake anything. Unlike 98% of other singers today. >.< She actually recognizes that little kids look up to her, and that she's a role model. She doesn't do anything stupid, and she actually has values. Even if you don't like country music, there's no way you can't like her, or at least appreciate her for what she does.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZU_XImyTKy8 - @ 6:48
http://music.aol.com/video/change-aol-sessions/taylor-swift/2361907
http://music.aol.com/video/love-story-aol-sessions/taylor-swift/2361881

I love Buster. <3 He tolerates so much, lmao.







He's so handsome. =]

Click to make them bigger. >.< Stupid Blogger never makes them the right size.

Horse Survey
100 Question Riding Quiz
*YOU*

1. How old were you when you first started riding?:
12

2. First horse ridden:
Besides the random ponies at fairs & stuff, Kipper.

3. First horse trotted on:
Kipper

4. First horse cantered on:
Zoe

5. First Horse fallen off of:
Montel

6. Most recent horse fallen off of:
Tucker

7. First horse you trotted over poles with:
Oh idk, Zoe probably?

8. First horse jumped with:
Spirit

9. First horse who ran away with you:
I think Pie maybe? It was only a few strides, but I can't remember if it was him first or Montel.

10. First horse that scared the crap out of you:
No idea? Lol.

11. First horse shown?:
Zoe

12. First horse to win a class with:
Zoe

13. Do you/have you taken lessons:
Yep

14. First horse you ever rode bareback:
Zoe

15. First horse trail ridden with:
Rick, lmao.

16. Current Barn name:
Strain Family Equestrian Center

17. Do you ride English or western?
English

18. First Horse to place at a show with:
Zoe

19. Ever been to horse camp?:
Yep

20. Ever been to a riding clinic?:
I've watched a few, and been to an unmounted clinic.

21. Ridden sidesaddle?:
No

22. First horse leased:
Justin

23. First horse owned:
No one yet, but hopefully Buster! =D

24. Highest ribbon in a show:
1st

25. Ever been to an 'A' rated show?:
No

26. Ever competed in pony games/relay races?:
Yeah

27. Ever fallen off at a show:
Lmao, yeah.

28. Do you ride Hunter/Jumpers?
Yes

29. Have you ever barrel raced?
For fun at camp and stuff.

30. Ever done pole bending?
No

31. Favorite gait:
Trot

32. Ever galloped bareback?:
Nope

33. Have you ever done dressage?
For like, a week, lmao.

34. Have you ever evented?
No

35. Have you ever mucked a stall?
Yeah

36. Ever been bucked off?
Yes >.<

37. Ever been on a horse that reared?
Yep

38. Horses or ponies?
Ponies

39. Do you wear a helmet?
Yep

40. What's the highest you've jumped:
2'3", like, once.

41. Have you ever ridden at night?
Yeah

42. Do you watch horsey television shows?
Yeah

43. Have you ever been seriously hurt/injured from a fall?
Yep. Broke both bones in my left forearm, and had to have surgery on it. Damn horse, lol.

44. Have you ever ridden without anything (no saddle, bridle, halter ect.
Yep

45. Do you ride in an arena or ring?
Uhm, what's the difference? xD

46. Have you ever been trampled by a horse?
No

47. Have you ever been bitten?
Yep

48. Ever had your foot stepped on by a horse?
Yepp

49. Do you clean your tack regularly?
Only before shows, lol.

50. Ever played ride-a-buck?
Yep

*YOUR HORSE*
51. Show Name: Bustin' Out Blue

52. Barn Name: Buster

53. Any nicknames?
I call him Buster Duster for some reason. xD

54. Breed: Appaloosa

55. Goes english or western: English

56. Sex?
Gelding

57. Age: 8/9

58. Primary Discepline?
Hunters

59. Show experience?
I have a feeling he was shown with his old owners, but I'm not positive. I'll be showing him though next year.

60. Good on the trail?
No idea actually, lol.

61. Did you train this horse yourself?
Nope

62. Vices?
Nothing really. He's just retarded. xD

63. Spooky?
Nopee. I've only seen him spook once.

64. Is your horse able to be ridden bareback?
Yeah

65. Does your horse come when you call?
Sure

66. Is your horse good with children and other horses?
Children, yes. Other horses? Eh, depends. xD Lately he's learned to hate almost every horse at the barn, but there are still a few he doesn't mind.

67. Is your horse worked regularly:
Yep

68. Ever a lesson horse?
Currently

69. Does your horse like treats?
Yes? He's a horse, lmao.

70. Do you take lessons on your horse?
Yep

71. Is your horse easy to work around?
Yeah

72. Has your horse ever escaped from it's stall?
Not that I know of

73. Do you feel safe on your horse?
Yeah. Except when he's having a bad jumping day. xD

74. Is your horse hard to worm?
No idea

75. Is your horse good for the farrier vet?
No idea xD

76. Have you ever won a class with your horse?
Yepp =]

77. Have you ever had a moment where you feel really connected to your horse?
Mhmm

78. Does your horse like hay?
Again, he's a horse. Of course he does, lmao.

79. Does your horse have special feed or supplement?
Not right now.

80. Does your horse often have a very messy stall?
Not really. He's pretty good about not destroying it. xD

81. Does your horse use any special tack?
Nope

82. Do you use a whip and spurs?
Crop

83. Does your horse like to run?
Eh, not really? I've never seen him run. xD

84. How many times a week do you ride your horse?
Right now, only once a week, and that's only sometimes. xD

85. Does your horse have markings?
Yepp. He's spotty! =D

86. Do you braid your horse for shows?
I will if I'm not lazy. xD

87. What color is your horse's halter?
Uhm, right now I believe it's green?

88. Does your horse follow you?
Yeah

89. Can your horse backup?
Barely xD

90. Is your horse's trot easier to sit to or post to?
Mm, either or. Doesn't really make a difference. He's pretty smooth either way.

91. Have you ever dressed your horse up for halloween?
Nope

92. Describe your horse in one word:
Special.

93. Has your horse ever produced offspring?
No idea, but I doubt it, lol.

94. Do you and your horse have "colors"?
Blue/brown.

95. What is your horse's favorite treat?
French fries, or anything with SALT. Omfg, it's his crack. xD

96. Do you normally lunge your horse before riding?
Nope

97. Has your horse ever given a pony ride?
No idea

98. How many people owned this horse before you?
No idea.

99. Does your horse get dirty easily?
Yes. He's white. >.<

100. What's your favorite horsey memory?
Lotss.

Where​ did you begin​ 2008?
At mah house.

Did you have to go to the hospi​tal?​
No

Did you have any encou​nters​ with the polic​e?​
My stepdad got pulled over, and I was in teh car if that counts.

Where​ did you go on vacat​ion?​
Cape Coddd

What did you purch​ase that was over $​500?​
I got a $700 camera, but it was a gift. So nothing technically.

Did you know anybo​dy who got marri​ed?​
Don't think so.

Did you know anybo​dy who passe​d away?​
Yeah

What sport​ing event​s did you atten​d?​
Horse shows, soccer games.

What conce​rts/​shows​ did you go to?
Uhm, school concerts? xD

Descr​ibe your birth​day.
Amazing?

What'​s the one thing​ you thoug​ht you would​ never​ do but did in 2008?​
Uh...no idea.

What has/​have been your favor​ite momen​t(​s)​?​
A bunch

Any new addit​ions to your famil​y?​
Yeah

What was your best month​?​
Idk really

Who has been your best drink​ing buddy​?​
I don't drink yo son.

Made new frien​ds?​
Mhm

Favor​ite Night​[​s]​ out?
I don't really have nights out. xD

Any regre​ts?
Not really

What do you want to chang​e in 2009?​
Idkk

Overa​ll,​ how would​ you rate this year?​
10/10

Have any life chang​es in 2008?​
I guess? Idk.

Chang​e your hairs​tyle?​
Ugh. No. Soon though!

Get a new job?
No

How old did you turn this year?​
17

Did anyth​ing embar​rassi​ng?​
Lmao, obviously. Who doesn't?

Get marri​ed or divor​ced?​
TOTALLY

Be hones​t - did you watch​ Ameri​can Idol?​
Nope. Haven't in years.

Start​ a new hobby​?​
Not really

Been snowb​oardi​ng?​
Nope

Are you happy​ to see 2008 go?
Idk. Not really but I don't care.

Drank​ Starb​ucks in 2008?​
Nope

Been naugh​ty or nice?​
Nice? Lol.

What are you wishi​ng for in 2009?​
MY PONEH AND FOR TO DOZ WELL IN HORSEY SHOWZ WIT HIM. =D

I make pretty pictures. =D

I kept meaning to update this thing, but I keep forgetting. xD

We had the Regional Hippology Contest saturday, and I place 1st for my county in Seniors (ages 14-18) and 1st overall in Western MA for Seniors.

Yesterday we went Christmas caroling at a local nursing home for community service for 4-H.

Then after that we went to Deana's house for our 4-H Christmas party. We got our jackets, so we're like, officially a real club now. xD Not really, but every other club in our county has like jackets & stuff, so it feels cool to finally have them after like 3 years.

And I got to see Justin! I haven't seen him in a while, so it was really good to see him. =]

Uhm, holy freaking noodles.

My mom bought me a Rebel for my birthday...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I <333333 it. =D

I've had a seriously freaking awesome birthday.=]