Pictures from the show last weekend.
Click on them to make them bigger. =]
http://picasaweb.google.com/Rayzee12/WestfieldGrazers2009#

I originally took over 500 pictures at the GPC Horse Show on Sunday.
I somehow narrowed it down to 208. xD

Here's the link to the album where all the pictures are.
Some pictures on there look really blurry and unfocused, but I swear they're not. It kept the quality of most of the pictures on there, but for some reason it totally ruined some of them.
So try to ignore those ones and picture them not blurry in your head. XD
Look! Look! Look!
http://picasaweb.google.com/Rayzee12/GranbyPonyClubHorseShow2009#
I used my new lens to take them all. =]
It seriously made me all warm and fuzzy and happy inside, lol.

"Maybe this applies to all of us. It's been said that "All the world's a stage." We all have an audience. We all have some kind of influence. We all have a story and a voice. Our lives are our songs. Our hearts are our songs. It's okay to ask real questions. It's okay to say real things. Let's make things that matter and move, and let's chase after those things as well."

-Jamie Tworkowski, founder of To Write Love On Her Arms.

Just ordered my prom dress and my new camera lens. :)

My new lens! http://www.ritzcamera.com/product/541162178.htm
Graduation present from my mom. :)

Prom dress - http://www.overstock.com/Clothing-Shoes/Donna-Ricco-Womens-Chiffon-Halter-Dress/3906239/product.html
Getting it in the brown.

I'm going to Kentucky in November!
Last week I posted about the MA 4-H State Round Up, and how I got 5th place, which meant I was the alternate.
Well the girl who was in 2nd place decided that she is going to Nationals for Communications instead of Hippology, and dropped out. So I'm on the team!
We get to go to the New England Round Up in October, and then to the National Round Up in Kentucky for 5 days in November. =]

I don't even know how this happened. This is my first year competing in Hippology at all, and now I'm going to compete at the highest level, with the three other best people in Massachusetts. We get to represent our whole freaking state in Kentucky.

...Seriously?

I guess reading every horse book, magazine, and website I could get my hands on since the 4th grade has payed off.

I'm currently putting off doing this Sociology paper that was due yesterday.

So me and two other girls from my club competed at the MA State 4-H Round Up this weekend. This is the first year that anyone in our club has competed at Horse Judging, Hippology and Horse Judging even at the local level, even though we've been around for 4 years, lol. But in order to go to the state round up, we had to qualify at the local/regional level first. Originally at the regional level, I got 1st in my county in Hippology, and 1st overall for Seniors (ages 14-18) in Western MA. And I placed 3rd in my county for Horse Judging, and 8th overall for Seniors in Western MA.

The State Round Up was held at a water park/hotel, and we were there for the whole weekend, and it was wicked fun. =D

Friday we got there late, ate, studied with my leader, and then crashed. xD
Saturday was Hippology and Horse Bowl. I ended up getting 5th overall for Seniors in Massachusetts in Hippology. The top four placing seniors get to go to Nationals in KY in November, and the fifth place person is the alternate. So I get to study and stuff with the team, and if any one of the top four drops out, I get to go to Kentuckyyyyyy. =D

Then this morning we had Horse Judging. We had five classes to judge - HUS, Western Pleasure, Hunt Seat Eq. w/ a pattern, Appaloosa in Hand, and Hunter in Hand. They were pretty hard since half the horses we had to judge were spazzes, had bad riders, or were lame. -.o
I placed the HUS and WP classes correctly, and only missed by one or two places on the others.
Then we had to present reasons for HUS and Hunter in Hand. I did good on my reasons for Hunter In Hand, but I completely failed on my reasons for HUS. It took me like, 30 seconds, when it should take you around a minute or a minute and a half. xD
I still managed to place 9th overall for Seniors in MA out of like, 40 people or so that qualified from 11 counties. The amount of people and counties was around the same for the Hippology too.

The blue looks better. =]

I'm not really sure I'm liking the yellow, but at least it's better than the black.
I'm gonna try and find another color, maybe.

I fail at keeping this updated. =\

Anyways. I'm excited for like, SO MANY THINGS.
This weekend we're going to the state Round-Up for 4-H. 1st in Western Mass for Hippology bitchhhh. I'm something of importance in Horse Judging as well, but I don't care much about that. I hate horse judging. xD So I'm hoping to at least place in Hippology on the state level. Being able to go to Kentucky for getting in the top 4 would be pretty sick too, but I doubt it's going to happen. Lmao.
Then there's Granby Pony Club on May 17th. Best. Show. Everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Me & Jennie are grooming for Rachel and Apple, and I'm determined to take as many pictures as I can, of everyone XD.
Then Cape Cod for the last weekend in May. <33333
I really wish I was still going for 2 weeks in the summer, but if all I can get is one weekend, I'll take it.
Graduation the Friday after I come home. =D D= I want to get out of there and graduate, but I don't want to leave. =\
Then North Carolinaaaaaaaa. We leave two days after graduation, for 2 weeks. Wild ponies, and riding on the beach. =DDD
And thennnn, our 4-H club's horse show is on the 28th of June. 3rd year!

THEN OMGZ REGIONALS AT THE END OF JULY/BEGINNING OF AUGUST. =D =D =D =D =D =D
Okay, so I lied. Granby Pony Club is the second best show ever. So what? Regionals is totally the best.
Honestly, what's better than sleeping in a camper for 3 hot nights, and being confined to the local fairgrounds for an even hotter 4 days straight, and doing nothing but showing horses? NOTHING. Bitch.

So yeah, that's about it for the next like, 4 months. xD

I really need to update this thing more often. =\

I could do anything on this horse. Honestly anything.
I miss him. <3

Ftw.
I'd appreciate it if all this fighting stopped.
My parents are fighting pretty much daily now, over incredibly stupid stuff.
My sister fights with me numerous times a day.
I'm currently in an argument with my friend, which has been happening a lot lately as well.
And on fucking VD and YR, almost every god damned topic is currently a fight.
Everyone is getting so worked about the stupidest and most pointless things.
And I'm even fucking fighting with myself.
I just spent close to an hour talking to my friend about how much I freaking fail at riding, because I've been nothing but scared shitless for the past one and a half years.
I'd really like my mind to stop being a bitch and let me fucking enjoy riding, just for once.
I'm sick of not being able to get over my fear, and I'd really like to not have to fight with myself almost daily about how much of a crappy rider I am, mental wise, and how I can't get the fact through my head that I'm not going to die every time I get on a damn horse.

Everyone can seriously just piss off today.

I stood in my room last night, just holding Buster's halter, for about 15 minutes.
Just standing there.
He only wore it once, but it's all I have left of him.



I can't thank you enough for everything you taught me, and all of the amazing rides you gave me. You taught me so many valuable lessons, and you taught me about so many of the little details of riding, that I never knew were important before, and you started to give me some of my confidence back. Something that I don't think I would ever have been able to accomplish with any other horse. No other horse would be as tolerable of me as you were.
You're an amazing horse, and you deserve nothing but the best. I hope your new owner, whoever he or she may be, can give you that. I'll never forget you. <3

To Write Love On Her Arms Day is Fridayyyy.
Write "Love" on your arm! Plz? Kthx!
No, seriously. Do it. Or I'll shank you.
Really.
I will.

Silly Quarter Horse thinks he's an Arabian. =P

 

Buster is possibly the cutest horse. Ever. YOU CAN'T DENY IT.

Wtffffff.
My parents are freaking interrogating me.
I bought a book off line, called Thirteen Reasons Why, someone on a website that I go on asked if anyone had read it, and what they though about it, so I looked it up, and it sounded interesting. It deals with suicide though, but I like reading those kinds of books, because I've been through that before and so I can kinda of relate with the characters and stuff. It's personal to me and it's just interesting to read stories like that. So I ordered it yesterday offline.
So I left the receipt for the book out on the printer and my mom went and looked the book up, and she like wtf, why are you reading this book. At first she asked me what it was about, and I was just like, idk, I forget, because I KNEW she would question me about it. So she asked me why I didn't tell her, and why I lied to her, and I was just like, because I knew you were gonna questions me about it like this.
So now they're wondering why I would want to read a book like that, because they're automatically assuming that I'm back into that state of mind. Which I'm not, and I never will be again. I can guarantee that. It's not something that I think about doing anymore, but it is something that I still like to read about, or talk about, because suicide and self injury awareness and stuff is a big part of my life now, and I'm always willing to talk about it because I know that it's a topic that isn't talked about nearly enough as it should be, so it's important to me to raise awareness and educate people about it.
So now they're jumping on me about it. >.<
I understand that they would be worried to some degree, because they don't want me to go through that again, but I know that I'm not going to, and I don't feel like that. But it's not just the fact that they're worried, they're pissed beyond all belief that I'm reading something like that, and that can't just accept that I think it's an interesting book, and it's just something that sounds like it would be good to read.
And then, a few years ago, they found out that I read a book called Cut by Patricia McCormick, and it was the same situation. I read it because it was personal to me, and it was just simply an interesting book. So just because I read a book about cutting, they automatically accused me of doing it. And they just brought it up again when they were questioning me about the first book, and they asked me if I knew anyone that had ever cut themselves, and I said yeah, because I know a bunch of people that have, so they were like who, and asked me if it was any of my friends. I said yeah, because there's a bunch of people from school and stuff that have, and they asked me who. Obviously I'm not gonna tell my parents who, so I was just like, idk, you don't know any of them, and so my stepdad got pissed at me because he just asked if it was any of my friends. Er, sorry, but you don't know every single person I've ever hung out with, or that I'm friends with within school or anything.

UGH. It just pisses me off how much they jump on me about crap like that. I understand they don't want me to go through it again, but I'm not going to, and they know that. I'm happier now then I was before I ever went through any of that, and they know that as well. It's just the fact that they honestly get PISSED, just because I want to read a book that has to do with subject, because it's interesting to me. Just because I'm interested in it, doesn't mean I'm going to do it, or that I feel that way.

jigsdgds0selfh.

My parents are in the other room, talking about Obama, AGAIN.
No, I shouldn't say talking.
Discriminating is a better word.
Because he's fucking black.
I can't even believe how racist they are.
It's ridiculous.
I'm honestly the ONLY person in my family, not just in my house, but my whole entire extended family, that isn't a racist, except my sister, because she's thankfully too young. And I'm hoping she stays that way. I swear if she ends up thinking the same way my parents do, I'm never gonna forgive them. You know what, even if she ends up having the same opinions that they do, I won't even care half as bad if she comes up with those opinions on her own. At least they'll be her own thoughts, no matter how much I disagree with them.

My mom had to make an appointment for my brother at the doctors office for something, and it's a new doctor's office. They had to ask my mom a bunch of questions, including her race and stuff. She goes "Why the hell do they need to know what color I am?" And she goes "Yeah, I should've told them I was black and I would've gotten an appointment the next day, 'cause they're always the first priority."
Uhm, sorry, that's NOT how it works. That may be how you want to see it, because you think black and Hispanic people are worthless, but it's not right.
And then she said "Well I told them before that both of us worked, so that should've given them the clue that we were white."
There's isn't even a response I can give to that. It's so utterly ridiculous and racist, that I have nothing to say to it. Do you know how many WHITE people only have one parent working? Does that still make them better then blacks, just because they're white? Even though they have the same circumstance, I can guarantee you my family would only criticize the black family with one parent working, and not the white family.

Honestly, I don't care if you're for or against Obama. That's not what this whole post is about. It's about the fact that people are STILL to fucking ignorant to realize that it doesn't matter what color skin people have, or what their ethnic background is. Even if 2 people, a black and a white person, had the same exact situation going on, for example the one parent working thing that I mentioned above, it's really freaking ridiculous that people, including my parents, are still so close-minded, even in today's world, to only criticize the black person, just because they still think whites are better than everyone else.

Seriously, open up your mind and stop being so ignorant. You live in America for God's sakes.

Can I just say how much I love Taylor Swift?
She's got a freaking amazing voice, she's wicked pretty, and she doesn't fake anything. Unlike 98% of other singers today. >.< She actually recognizes that little kids look up to her, and that she's a role model. She doesn't do anything stupid, and she actually has values. Even if you don't like country music, there's no way you can't like her, or at least appreciate her for what she does.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZU_XImyTKy8 - @ 6:48
http://music.aol.com/video/change-aol-sessions/taylor-swift/2361907
http://music.aol.com/video/love-story-aol-sessions/taylor-swift/2361881