I hate how I ride backwards.
Not literally, obviously? But like, in my head.

Yesterday my trainer wanted me to ride Zeke for her. He's one of the schoolies, and he's good as a push button horse, for walk/trotters that don't do anything. But a lot of them are starting to want to canter, and they are getting better with their riding, but that can't do it on him. He's a little snot when it comes to cantering for them, and all he does is get out of control and trot as fast as he can and charges into the canter like a mad beast. So my trained wanted me to school him for her, so he remembers what a correct canter transition is, and so he remembers how to do one. xD

But anyways, I had no problem with him. I knew that I had to ride defensively with him, and I was going to have to get after him most likely. And I was fine with it. Whenever I get on horses that I'm comfortable with, and that I know they know what they're doing, like Buster or someone, is more when I tend to get nervous. But if I get asked to school a horse like that, or I'm riding a horse that I know I'm going to have to get after and ride defensively, is when I don't get nervous? I actually enjoyed riding him, and I was kind of looking forward to it. I was in the mood to train a horse. I wasn't scared at all, and I had completely faith in myself that I could ride this horse, and get him to do what he needed to do.

On a horse that knows what he's doing, and will do it without any problem when I ask, are the horses that I doubt myself on. Maybe I was brain damaged as a child.