Argh. >.< Stupid grounding. I'm freaking grounded from the computer because I apparently hate my little sister, according to my stepdad, and I didn't LOOK at her when I said hi to her last week.
Whatever.

I had another lesson on Saturday. It went ok at first, but then once we started to do some cantering and jumping, it started to go downhill. I rode Ace again, and he has a very short strided canter, and it's very uncomfortable to sit to. And he gets strong after jumps. He's fine riding up to the jump, and the actual jump is fine, but he just like takes off after. My instructor gave us, well, mostly me, this lecture at the end of our lesson, about how we could do more, and we had to push ourselves to do more. She doesn't know anything about my accident, and that I have confidence issues, so she just assumed that I wasn't pushing myself, and that I just wasn't "there" that day. So later in the day, I went to her and I talked to her about it. I apologized for my lesson, and I told her that I had a bad fall last year. I said that most days I'm fine, but some days I wake up and it's just all I think about. It like, literally takes over my mind, and I can't think at all when I'm riding. It just replays over and over in my head. She said that she understands, and that I just need to talk to her, and let her know how I'm feeling at the time.

This week, my sister has a soccer game at freaking 8 in the morning (WHO DOES ANY SORT OF PHYSICAL ACTIVITY WILLINGLY AT 8 AM?) so my lesson is rescheduled to 2:30. It's a half hour private, so all the attention is going to be focused on me, and hopefully I'll get somewhere. >.<>.<

So I guess we'll see how it goes.